Wednesday, January 6, 2010


There are so many things I should be doing right now. For example, finishing my AP Lit homework or finishing my last three college supplements. But instead I'm blogging and going on sporcle (great website btw- but deadly if you've got important things to do). Damn. I've been having such a hard time because I already have senioritis and I haven't even gotten into a college yet. I have no real right to be doing this right now until April, when I've heard from the fourteen schools I'm applying to (I shouldn't have ended that sentence in a preposition- my English teacher wouldn't be happy). At least I'm thinking about English, right? I'm also thinking about college and getting the apps done....I guess "it's the thought that counts" doesn't exactly hold water in this particular situation. I just want to get into college and be done with it. At first, I was thinking, I just want to know that I'm at least going to go somewhere. I know I'll find out from some places fairly soon because they have earlier notification dates, so then I'll have that bit of comfort that I'm not going to be living with my parents next year (not to be anything against my parents- I just want to go to college- see new things). Even though I want that comfort, I'm afraid that if I get into the schools that have earlier notification dates, my unprecedented senioritis will get so increased that it will become fatal. My god, I'm SO ready to get out of high school. I could graduate a semester early if I wanted- I'd have the credits, but I'd have to find something to do for 4 and a half months before I went to wherever I decide to go to college. I also think that there's something in graduating with your class and having all the end of year special senior things at the end of the year. All that stuff's starting to not matter to me anymore- I JUST WANT TO GET OUT. OK- time to peel myself away from this and finish my monologue analysis.

This was a really negative post. I apologize. I'll try to be more positive next time.